Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Geez, do I whine a lot or what?

Sorry I haven't been around. I really don't have a good reason why I haven't posted. I've been consumed with trying to finish the 1153 pages that is The Stand which has already put me behind on my Harry Potter reading schedule. That's why I gave myself a week for each book even though I knew I wouldn't need it.
Mostly, I've been a little discouraged lately. My writing group didn't work out. I got a 'can we change the time', and a 'can we change the place', then when I e-mailed the other few possible writers they weren't sure if they could make the new time if I changed it. Not that they were positive they could make the original time either and the person wanting the time changed wasn't sure they could make either time but was more likely to make the newly suggested time. So I'm pretty much just running around in circles trying to pull teeth and a bunch of other proverbial cliches that have something to do with getting no where and having a difficult time doing it. Or something like that.

Then, there's the wedding thing. I'm going to be the maid-of-honor in a wedding at the beginning of July. I know, how exciting my best friend is getting married but that is not quite the case. While I spend my time and money running around trying to make sure that she has the best day(s) possible, for the second time I might add, I think to myself, would she do the same for me? Then I think wow, this person who claims I'm her best friend has never, to my knowledge, read my blog. I know, big deal it's just a blog but it's not. It's about my writing and that is my life. It's what I do in my spare time and my not spare time and it's something I want to do and will do for the rest of my life whether I make money doing it or not. It's one of the most important things to me and this person and a lot of my other so called "friends" have never taken the time to stop by even once in the last two years. I know they have Internet access because I talk to them on-line all the time and I mention my blog all the time. I just think that if it was important to my best friend I would stop by occasionally.
They haven't even stopped by the Behind the Naugahyde website. And I sent out an e-mail to everyone I had an address for announcing that.
It just makes me sad. If I can't get people who consider me their "best friend" to read my blog how the heck am I going to get anybody to read it? Or does it just really show how pathetic my life is that random strangers and people I've only met through the Internet read this more than people who want me to be in their wedding.

Not to mention that my number of visits drop in the summer. My few regular readers are there but a lot less people randomly stop by. Probably because they are all outside living life. Not that it matters because most of them probably don't stick around to read it anyway. It's just nice to feel like I'm not talking to a wall sometimes.
For those of you that do read this, whether I've met you or not, thank you!

Alrighty, self-pity party over. I'm off to finish the last hundred pages of The Stand so I can finally got on with my life. Curse my horrible need to know how something ends right away. I just can't handle not knowing.


tiffany said...

ok, that's it. we do not live that far away from each other. let's meet for a writing thing. we probably can't do it every week, but i think we could do it maybe every other, or at least once a month. it would be really great for me, because lately i haven't been writing anything other than my blog. and, even there? not so much. i'll bring my favorite teacher from my college days. she is awesome. we will have a martini and get creative.
and then we'll have another martini. and also cookies. and maybe pizza or something.

Ashley said...

Thanks Tiffany! I would love that. I was even thinking that if we did meet we could have the writers group closer to you. My writing partner on Behind the Naugahyde, Jenni, lives near that area. So maybe we could all get together.

Ian Castruita said...

It seems to me that if I ever manage to finish illustrating my short story anthology, you might be just the outsider to give me some serious critique and input - it ain't no writing group, but it probably won't put a dent in your Harry Potter schedule!

Let me know if you're interested, and thanks for visiting my blog regardless!


Ashley said...

Hey Ian!
I would be happy to check out your anthology. I have nothing to do but read when I'm at work so it will definitely fit into my schedule.

And thanks for stopping by!